Road map?

I took a long block leave to find back the person I am. I realized I was a little bit lost and I need a break to pull myself back.

8th of May, 2 days before the 3rd year marriage anniversary, we went to the high court in Ipoh to settle off our marriage. No more tears and sadness. Guess, both of us have finally get over it and probably the best route ever for us.  We befriended again, like what we used to be before our marriage. Ain't that the best feeling, I thought.

I could not hold back my tears on the mothers' day. Received a call from my ex father in law while I was staying at my mum's office in Singapore. Without much hesitation, I picked up the call. The phone was then passed to my dearest son, Lucas. All I heard was Lucas loudly pronounced to me, "Happy Mother's Day". I was so happy and touched, hence my tears fall.

Now, should I move to a new place with new environment, leaving behind almost everything in the country? It's a choice that I probably not only need to think twice but to think thousand times. A decision that I should not regret, I should be happy with.

Yes, this holiday did not really bring me to find who I am, but rather allow me to learn to choose a route of my life. I need a road map of life, if there's one.

-Moving on TC- 

Another chapter

Always, when a gal fell down and trying to move on with her life, all she will do to herself is to change her hairstyle. How true,right! Since I'm just another ordinary lady on the street, I've decided to move on with my new hair style. Ooops, it's just a temporary curl. =b. I just trimmed my hairs, cut off all the dried and dead ends hair symbolizing, bad things has ended.

Cheers to another new chapter.

-Moving On TC-

11 hours to go

sitting on the sky lounge at his home, accompany by a can of heineken, counting down for another 11 hours, and yet hoping for a miracle to come. The question is, do I really want a miracle or I'm just too emotional at this moment. I'm confused.

I broke down in the room, and I could not stop bursting out my tears. heartache. It was the real pain. Painful.
Was just craving for a tight hug. But, I was all alone. I felt insecure, indecisive. Should I make a U turn? but again I wonder if there's even a choice for me to choose?

Now, I thought to myself, life will be better. Be strong. When tomorrow comes and I looked back, I will smile and be gladful for the decision I made. I know I can walk through this dirty, yucky path. The road gonna turn out to be smooth, and beautiful with greeneries and flowers all over. My ocean gonna fill with all the beautiful lovely creatures. Say, it gonna be a better day!

-Moving On TC-