It's been more than a month that we have known each other. Not really a long period though. He has impressed me the way he is. I totally feel blessed whenever I am with him even though we had some quarrels at times due to different thought and mind set. We had lots of fun being with each other each time we met. We spent most of our time together at driving range together with the papa and YY. Of coz, we enjoyed learning it together. Life in this one month bring me lots of happiness and loves, what's more when the 2 elderly have been treating me like their own family.
But... Life ain't a perfect one. There's never a smooth and beautiful road path for us. After all, we have to come back to reality. I'm a divorcee with a son. I know it's not easy, & it can be tough for them to accept my past. I hurt them... Giving them so much hope, an showing them how sweet & beautiful person I am, I have definitely disappoint them with this news being pour out to them. It's cruel... Cruel to someone who have been loving me so much for the past 1 month.
He has been very determined to be with me irregardless of if there's a rejection in the family. Myself on another hand thought, do we even need to be so selfish to just live in our own world. An ocean that consist of so many beautiful lovely creatures, that I thought we still need to give our attention to.
At one hand, I really want to be with him so much. On another, I do not want to be so cruel to the elderly. Tell me about it... How should I lead my own destination. I'm confused.
